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My desire to be a showgirl Yes, with breasts made to be sucked, lips made for sucking and an ass made for fucking; these girls were born male but now live and earn a living as a female. Hormones and when they start taking them helps make the difference on how the girls (Tgirls) of today are becoming even more feminine and with better shapes and bigger boobs. Drag shows have been in existence for many years and started becoming more popular since about the early 1900s. They get more popular as time goes by and are becoming more accepted. Some of the girls back in the 1960s or so could naturally develop small breasts but now the girls of today starting HRT earlier and having better access to estrogen, progesterone and spironolactone (a testosterone blocker) are developing larger and natural boobs. My own tits are a result of gynecomastia, which is female breast growth in males and that was caused by a hormonal imbalance. Most males consider gynecomastia a curse but I thought of it as a gift and did what I could to promote it and develop my own breasts. Some drag shows are much better than others. We have drag shows in Reno at some of the local nightclubs and bars but they are not quite what one would see in SF, LA, NO or NYC. The last one that Husband took me to at a local spot the girls were not passable and some were obese and it just was not that convincing. The irony of it though was that there were better looking passable girls in the audience that were there to view the show. My first close exposure to drag showgirls was years ago when I was a cocktail waitress at TG orientated gay nightclub. There were 11 of us girls that worked there, 5 including myself were cocktail waitresses and 6 were showgirls/dancers. The showgirls were Las Vegas type. All of us girls lived full time as a woman cuz that was required by the owner and we were all passable in public. We all lived at the same apartment complex but each with our own apartment and the complex was owned by the same owner of the nightclub we worked at. He gave us a special rental rate on our apartments. I would have taken a bit of a hit financially but wanted to switch from carrying a tray to being one of the showgirls on stage. I was next on the list to be a showgirl but I would have had to learned all the moves and be able to dance like a showgirl should. I would have taken a hit on money cuz of losing out on tips which were good. The showgirls were paid more but they did not make tips. Gay people do have a tendency to tip well. But good tips came with a price cuz we cocktail girls got patted and squeezed on the butt often and we had smile at the patron that was doing it. We had to wear skimpy scanty uniforms and high heels. The owner had envisioned of having kind of like a gay Playboy club. The showgirls dressed in Vegas showgirl outfits that displayed breast cleavage and plenty of butt cheek. My name was on the list and I would be next to start training as a showgirl but the owner was into some illegal activities and was arrested. The club was closed plus us girls had to find another place to live and find other jobs. Most had to leave fem life for awhile and seek work and a place to live as a male. I did have a strong desire to be a showgirl but that was the closest I ever got. Below are pics of actual real life transsexual showgirls. |
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by the way ,,,,, " SABRINA " TOLD ME she got her START doing DRAG before TRANSITIONING !!! even tho we have YET to meet in PERSON !! i just lovvvvvve her personality ! from our chats ! and texts ! she is BOLD ! BRASSY ! SASSY ! LOUD & PROUD !! UNAPOLOGETIC to THOSE who do NOT UNDERSTAND her ! i just hope that rubs off on me ! lol ! but i have cummmmmmmed a long way already !
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i HEAR you JULIE !! LOUD AND QUEEER !! and LOOKING BACK NOW !! i see sooo many SHOULDA ! WOULDA ! COULDA MOMENTS !! but back in the 70's ! gays were treated harshly when i was in high school ! i can remember hitting puberty ! and looking at the WOMEN'S section of the SEARS catolog !! mostly bras ! and panties !! we grew up on a 100 acre farm ! and i HATED doing those chores ! hauling hay ! building fences ! feeding the cows ! i did it ! but hated it ! every chance i had ,, i'd rather be in the kitchen helping my sisters bake ! and clean house ! i was definitley MORE FEM than my MACHO ! LATIN BROTHERS !! in hindsight ! ,,, and i over CUMpensated by trying to be like THEM !! lifting weights & playing FOOTBALL !!! it was THEN that i began NOTICING my team mates COCKS in the showers after practice ! again ,, no gay role models and i could never understand my ATTRACTION to FIRM ! HUNG BOYS !! i had a knack for cutting hair and began cutting my brother's and sister's hair ! that was the FIRST TIME i heard the PHRASE "SISSY FAGGOT " !! hell i did not even know what FAGGOT meant ? after high school ,, i tried my hand at CONSTRUCTION ! & working in the OIL FIELDS !! the money was GOOD ! BUT I HATED IT !! and ended up going to BEAUTY SCHOOL & got my COSMOTOLGY LICENSE !! so once again MY FRIENDS started calling me a FAGGOT !! but they were my best customers ! because i had a lot of WOMEN CLIENTS & they figured i could set them up !!! lol ! i eventualy married my co-worker becuz i got tired of being called GAAAAY ! even tho i had never been with a MAN !! i even had one RUDE female CUSTOMER tell me ! LOTS of GAY MEN GET MARRIED & HAVE KIDS !! hmmm ? was my homosexuality THAT OBVIOUS ? fortunatley for me ,,, my ex's younger brother was GAY & we would spend weekends at his apartment in austin ! and he would take us GAY BAR HOPPING !!! here i was in my mid 30's and i had never seen men kissing ! dancing and making out ! i found it Quite arousing ! erotic ! and then i saw my first DRAG QUEEN & CDER !! my god ! they were beautiful with their big 80's hair ! and OUTlandish OUTfits !! i thought they were real WOMEN until my ex's BROTHER told me they were MEN !!!! it did'nt matter because it had awaken the the SISSY FAGGOT in ME !!! if i was a STRAIGHT MAN then i would have not been caught dead in a GAY BAR !! even if i was married ! that fact made me rethink my life ! i even sneeked a gay mag home from my brother in law and hid it under our bed ! i had just been exposed to the gay nite life ! and here i was jerking off to IMAGES of MEN SUCKING & FUCKING !! seeing a man cum in a man's ass and mouth was better and hotter than any playgirl , penthouse magazine ! to say i was definetly in to it ! would be an understatement ! untill one day the MRS.! caught me JERKING OFF !! magazine in hand ! and sweetie ! she blew a GASKET !! i denied EVERY THING !! but my red face spoke volumes ! i was busted !!! and there was no going back ! she filed for divorce ! and got our salon ! but at least now ,, i knew where to meat men and find out if i was truly gaaaaaay ! bi ! or curious ! and horny ! and of course ,, i got my answer ,, yes ! i;m queeeer as fuck ! because not only was my first time intense ! it felt right and normal ! and it still is intense ! i did remarry in 03 ! but i never gave up the dick ! and it was only to once again hide my homosexuality ! i managed to hook up with a 30 something cder while she was away at work ! while not passable ,,, i enjoyed her soft skin , muscular legs ! and passionate kisses ! we 69ed and swapped cum filled kisses ! my 2nd ex would never suck me and TIFFANY was GREAT AS I AM TOO !! on another of my ex's business trips ! i hooked up with a BLACK ! HORSE HUNG TRANNY ! with big TITS & a thick 8 in. cock !! i rode her cowgurl style and when she came inside me ! i shot my load on her tits ! we never kissed ! but i licked my cum off those puppies ! it was those 2 gurls that sparked my inner gurl to another level ! and it was now chrystal clear to my ex i was becummming to fem for her ! and as with every woman ! she to left me for a more manly man ! we divorced in 08 ! and i soon got on out personals ! met a guy from my hometown and we dated briefly but i was now cumpletley out of the closet ! as there are no secrets in a small town ! i even attended my first gay pride festival ! and had never felt sooooo much love and acceptance ! like a moth to a flame !!! i was drawn to the DRAG QUEENS performing !!! being single has allowed me to pursue my feminity and make new friends !! this year i booked a 3 day stay at the wyndam resort in down town austin for the gay pride festival in aug. ! i will be sharing the condo with a TRANS COUPLE i friended on facebook !! SABRINA & WENDIE have agreed to DRESS ME UP as WONDER WOMAN & DO MY MAKE UP !!! they will be bringing other outfits for me when we go clubbing ! this will my FIRST TIME to go OUT IN PUBLIC IN FULL FEM MODE !!! so i told the gurls for my first time ! the campier ! guadier ! the better ! after all this is GAY PRIDE !! by the way the gurls ,, SABRINA & WENDIE are friends of my DAUGHTER !!! and they asked if my daughter knows i'm gay ?? i'm sure she has heard 1 but we have not discussed it ! don't ask ! don't tell ! but what better TIMING than GAY PRIDE to make my announcement ! and have her join us as " RAVEN " her DRAG QUEEN DADDY !!
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i REGRET not DRESSING UP as FRANK n FURTER from the ROCKY HORROR PICTURE SHOW i was still MARRIED to EX WIFE # 2 !! and been hooking up with MEN on DL !! SHE was ALL in to DO MY MAKE UP !! but i CHICKENED OUT !!! i really wanted to TELL her i am GAY !! but i'm sure she knew ! and by DRESSING UP i felt it would be my way of telling her ! but when she left me for a younger more macho man ! i no longer had to hide my feminity !
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You look great! My bi hook up got me to Cd for his fantasy.It never crossed my mind to try it so i had to spend a lot of time to build up the nerve.I was always a pretty boy but masculine demeanor.Now I think it’s fun playing a differant role.He brings me clothes etc and I enjoy seeing how turned on he gets watching me pose for him as foreplay.Anyways I think you look cute and b who u want to b.
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I'm a bit of an old school drag queen, where it was more about illusion, and putting on one hell of a show. I was a passable drag queen without overdoing it, though I did love big hair and nails. My man boobs are lovely, and in the right dresses, gowns and outfits, I provided my own ample cleavage. Even now, I enjoy moving between my male and female forms. Most importantly, I could dance, act, work a crowd and talk shit with the best of them, as well as sing with my own, "you sound like a bitch" voice! lol This made me the main act, as I filled in the gaps between the other drag queens. My point is my dear, you can be a showgirl with what you are working with. Every once in a while, I drag myself up, hit a karaoke bar, do a few numbers and give them bitches something to take about! I bet you can do it too! Gyny
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3/16/2019 5:23 pm |
I don't mind a little show just takes way more effort to pull it off anymore.
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You will always be a "show girl" to me! Love ya, Baby!
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Oh my yes. They are all so glamorous. And I remember doing drag shows and being the center of attention. What a feeling! And yes while some performers are very feminine and passable it's ok if some aren't. Being in drag is also an expression of ones self. I applaud anyone that does it. I remember the courage it took me to get up there! I personally love the over the top outrageous queens. Especially the bigger ones or the ones that have the courage to wear facial hair. While the passable ones are beautiful I find it very erotic to see a masculine male transform to his feminine side. I also knew many happily married straight men who loved to perform with their wives in the audience! They were completely straight but really enjoyed it. And I am happy their wives are supportive!
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I don’t know you personally....but I adore you Julie, so gorgeous
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But I do not act like a swishy fag cuz I work at being more like a natural cis woman. I have done this for many years an have perfected what I do.
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I was actually putting on an act being male. Being a feminine female is more natural for me.
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Although I was born male I desire to be a woman
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I had more pics but ran out of room
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