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From a woman's point of view:

General chat from a Tgirl

My desire to be a showgirl
Posted:Mar 16, 2019 11:31 am
Last Updated:Jul 12, 2019 4:41 pm
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Yes, with breasts made to be sucked, lips made for sucking and an ass made for fucking; these girls were born male but now live and earn a living as a female.

Hormones and when they start taking them helps make the difference on how the girls (Tgirls) of today are becoming even more feminine and with better shapes and bigger boobs. Drag shows have been in existence for many years and started becoming more popular since about the early 1900s. They get more popular as time goes by and are becoming more accepted.

Some of the girls back in the 1960s or so could naturally develop small breasts but now the girls of today starting HRT earlier and having better access to estrogen, progesterone and spironolactone (a testosterone blocker) are developing larger and natural boobs. My own tits are a result of gynecomastia, which is female breast growth in males and that was caused by a hormonal imbalance. Most males consider gynecomastia a curse but I thought of it as a gift and did what I could to promote it and develop my own breasts.

Some drag shows are much better than others. We have drag shows in Reno at some of the local nightclubs and bars but they are not quite what one would see in SF, LA, NO or NYC. The last one that Husband took me to at a local spot the girls were not passable and some were obese and it just was not that convincing. The irony of it though was that there were better looking passable girls in the audience that were there to view the show.

My first close exposure to drag showgirls was years ago when I was a cocktail waitress at TG orientated gay nightclub. There were 11 of us girls that worked there, 5 including myself were cocktail waitresses and 6 were showgirls/dancers. The showgirls were Las Vegas type. All of us girls lived full time as a woman cuz that was required by the owner and we were all passable in public. We all lived at the same apartment complex but each with our own apartment and the complex was owned by the same owner of the nightclub we worked at. He gave us a special rental rate on our apartments.

I would have taken a bit of a hit financially but wanted to switch from carrying a tray to being one of the showgirls on stage. I was next on the list to be a showgirl but I would have had to learned all the moves and be able to dance like a showgirl should. I would have taken a hit on money cuz of losing out on tips which were good. The showgirls were paid more but they did not make tips. Gay people do have a tendency to tip well. But good tips came with a price cuz we cocktail girls got patted and squeezed on the butt often and we had smile at the patron that was doing it. We had to wear skimpy scanty uniforms and high heels. The owner had envisioned of having kind of like a gay Playboy club.

The showgirls dressed in Vegas showgirl outfits that displayed breast cleavage and plenty of butt cheek. My name was on the list and I would be next to start training as a showgirl but the owner was into some illegal activities and was arrested. The club was closed plus us girls had to find another place to live and find other jobs. Most had to leave fem life for awhile and seek work and a place to live as a male.

I did have a strong desire to be a showgirl but that was the closest I ever got. Below are pics of actual real life transsexual showgirls.









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International Women's Day
Posted:Mar 8, 2019 11:22 am
Last Updated:Jun 15, 2019 3:24 pm
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Today is International Women's Day. Annie Lennox formerly of the Eurythmics, one of my favorites from the 80s BTW, is promoting this day. There are also other celebrities joining her.

It is about violence against women and the atrocities and also the progress being made by women. This has to do with all over the world.

Most people read my blogs do know I think of myself as a woman even though I still have useless junk down below. I do have boobs and everything else about is womanly and feminine.

So I am celebrating this day with millions of other women world wide.
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I would not want the taxpayers to pay for my sex change
Posted:Mar 5, 2019 11:38 pm
Last Updated:Jun 15, 2019 3:25 pm
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I did start SRS and was already living as a woman when I was approved by the docs. After being approved and already making my surgery dates for a boob job and vaginoplasty I did cancel cuz of finances. Not only would the surgeries cost money but there was also the fact of having to stay on female hormones for the rest of my life and at the time when I was going to do this HRT was very costly and not covered by too many insurances.

I would have had to go right to work as a woman to support myself and not too many employers were thinking of hiring a post op transwoman. I did not have a resume or work history as a woman to take with me to a job interview.

About 20 or so years ago I read that the city of San Francisco would fund SRS/GRS surgeries for their city employees. I did not feel this was right for taxpayers to pay the expense of someone changing sexes. This is not a life or death surgery!

More recently it has been in the news about people going into the military to try to get SRS funded. I do not feel this was quite right either. If one cannot have their surgeries by different means then that was too bad but the tax payers should not have to carry the burden.

It is difficult to get approved for one surgery but I got lucky and was approved for a second surgery. I was approved for a second chance cuz I convinced the docs that I would be living as a woman anyway and there was also a man that I was madly in love with and we planned on getting legally married as husband and wife.

Not every person that tries for surgery does get approved for it. The docs; a psychiatrist and a surgeon has to approve the surgeries and it has to be determined that the patient would be better off living as a female. If the patient changes her mind after the surgery then it is too late and there is a mutilated individual cuz once the surgery is performed it cannot be reversed. The transgendered person has to live with what has been done to her. Suicide rate is high among women like me.

As it turned out my man bailed on me leaving me high and dry and I had to cancel my rare second chance also. He was going to pay for half and I was going to pay half. This was the arrangement cuz I was going to be his woman after the surgery. My surgery dates for breast augmentation and vaginoplasty were already arranged and I had to cancel. What was sad was that I sold my half interest of a successful restaurant and my house in southern California to pay for my half of the operation.

There is no way that I would be given a 3rd chance so I just gave up on the idea and found different ways to live as a woman.



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Dreams like these
Posted:Feb 28, 2019 2:02 pm
Last Updated:Jun 15, 2019 3:28 pm
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I do not have them frequently but over the I have had some weird dreams are kinda similar to this pic. When I found this pic on the internet it reminded of these dreams, although they have not been exactly like this.

I have been a fully naked women just wearing high heels in some dreams and I am being chased by giant alien sperm from outer space and are trying to get inside me. They are not like the ones in the pic with the eyeball head but just giant sperm with a cone shaped head and long tail. It has never happened in the dreams but it just seems to be known if they do get inside me I will get knocked and my tits will be like basketballs and I will get a swelly belly about like Octomom, remember her? My tummy gets bigger with each sperm finds its way inside .

I have had several dreams of being a naked woman in front of a group of fully dressed people, men and women both and I am there for their entertainment. These dreams have BDSM overtones.
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I had to cut husband off from fucking me.
Posted:Jan 29, 2019 1:37 am
Last Updated:Jun 15, 2019 3:28 pm
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For the first time since Husband and I were legally married and even a couple of months before when we first shacked up, I have had to cut him off from from intercourse. But I have continued to give him head and suck his dick until he cums in my mouth and me swallowing his load.

The reason for this is because I had to have a necessary medical procedure on my prostate. I had to get a roto-rooter done cuz there was some things that were causing me to bleed through my penis. The first time I noticed it was blood in my panties. Because of the way I tuck to look like a woman down there it looked much like I had a menstrual period. Of course we know that does not happen with me!

Sometimes I have a hard time going to the VA for certain issues and mainly go there for my type 2 diabetes cuz that was something I acquired in military service in Vietnam. I also go there for my damaged left inner ear sometimes, which causes me vertigo. That was combat related.

So for this prostate thing I did go through my personal physician a GP and he referred me to a urologist that he told me was cool with transgender. I spent one day in a hospital and woke up with a catheter up my penis with a clear hose running down over the side of the bed and down to a collection bag. I already knew that would happen. I only had to spend a day in the hospital during the day and was allowed to go home after a few hours of observation.

I am at home now but had to keep the catheter in me and drag around the collection bag with me for 3 days and keep it emptied but now I finally have it out. But I am experiencing temporary incontinence and having to wear and adult diaper for now. Pee gushes out of me with just a sneeze or a cough and sometimes just walking or sitting I feel it come out. When I do sit to pee it is hard to start and burns as it comes out.

Husband did miss a couple nights of any sex at all cuz I just did not feel like it. Now I have been giving him head and swallowing his load but have not let him screw me cuz I just did not feel like it. It might be a few days before I feel like letting him screw me again. He has been fucking me every night so us not having sex is very unusual for us.
Being that I am no longer a male I don’t care if I have a prostate or not but it does play an important part of my sex life as a woman. That is what generates my anal orgasms aka sissiygasms or assgasms. I cum without ejaculation. I consider it cumming like a woman from being fucked really good. The prostate is also known as the P spot in transgender cuz it acts like a woman’s G spot.
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Professional Drag Queens...Showgirls
Posted:Jan 18, 2019 2:05 am
Last Updated:Jun 15, 2019 3:43 pm
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This is something that I thought about doing years ago. In the mid 70s I did go to a trans girls finishing school.

These girls in the pics below kind of borderline between drag queen and transwoman. They aren't overly madeup or gaudy as some drag queens.

Right now I just try to appear as an everyday women and blend in.

Below are Jinkz Monsoon, Courtney Act, Adore Delano, April Carrion and Joshlyn Fox









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This trumps trump's wall
Posted:Jan 16, 2019 4:53 pm
Last Updated:Jun 15, 2019 3:36 pm
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The drug cartels have been using tunnels for transporting drugs and also human trafficking for years. Just how far deep in the ground is trump going to bury his barrier to obstruct tunnels?

Trump's wall is not going to stop drugs from coming into the U.S. Many drugs come by speed boats through Florida. The wall will not stop that. The 9/11 attackers came down through Canada. How is a wall on the U.S./Mexican border going to stop that?

It is reported now that drugs from Mexico are being delivered by drones flying over the border. If the wall is built the drones will just fly over it. Low flying aircraft under radar have already been bringing in drugs for years. There have been reports lately of people putting up ladders against existing fences and throwing stuff over.

It is also reported that our ports of entry are major access points for drug smuggling.

And now people are out of work and not being paid over this damn wall!

Below is the most recent pic of the latest wall that was discovered by Mexican police. This is the 3rd one discovered in a month.
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They call it a womanless pageant
Posted:Jan 14, 2019 11:08 pm
Last Updated:Jun 15, 2019 3:44 pm
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It's a beauty pageant that is mostly boys. They call it a womanless pageant but they do what they can to look like females and model it after a regular women's beauty pageant except I have not seen anything indicating that they have swimsuit contests or anything other than just dressing as females

They do have trans pageants also but those girls and women do look more convincing than the ones that are called the womanless. The trans do as best they can to look like real women and they do have evening gown and swimsuit contests and do interviews.

I was never fortunate enough to compete in a trans beauty pageant but I would have loved too. Below are 3 pics of a 'womanless pageant. and below that are Trans pageant pics. I don't know what these boys in the womanless do sexually but I would think that they would desire gay sex being that they want to be feminine. The trans pageants the contestants do want to be like women sexually.







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Husband called me and told me to pick out a dress to wear tomight
Posted:Dec 31, 2018 12:19 pm
Last Updated:Jun 15, 2019 3:44 pm
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We originally planned on staying home tonight for NYE but my Husband called me this morning from work and told me to pick out a dress to wear tonight that we have been invited to a party and he decided we are going to attend.

That gives me a real busy afternoon cuz I'm completely unprepared and have much to do. But I will do as Husband says cuz I am a good obedient wife.

Not only do i have to pick out a dress from my closet to wear but I also have to touch up my nails cuz I can't get an appointment with my beautician on this short of notice. My nails, finger and toe both, and doing my hair, shaving my body (under arms and body) and my makeup will take some time. My makeup will be the last part that I will do before I get dressed.

The dress I have picked out for tonight can be considered a cocktail or party dress. The pic below is not the exact dress but one that is very similar. It does have the lace insert going down between the cleavage and from an angled side or 3/4 view it does show a bit of boob and I will not be wearing a bra with this dress. I do not have those same shoes that are in the pic but do have heels that I can wear with it, ankle strap sandals with a 4 inch heel. I also have dangling earrings similar to those in the pic. I'm also going to wear black back seamed stockings with a Cuban heel. Needless to say, all black underthings (corset with garter straps) and panty.

Husband always tells me that I do look like a real cis woman when I'm dolled up, as we call it when I get fixed up. One thing I luv about him is he allows and even encourages, me to be like a woman. He wants me to be a woman and that is fine by me cuz with him I can let out the woman that has been inside me for years. I will live totally enfemme the rest of my life.


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Best time of the year to buy swimsuits
Posted:Dec 29, 2018 12:32 pm
Last Updated:Jun 15, 2019 3:45 pm
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I just bought 3 women's one piece swimsuits for half the price of what they would retail for in the summer.

A word to other shemales, transwomen and Tgirls is buy halter suits that tie or attach behind the neck. The angle of the straps makes the shoulders appear narrower.

In the groin I do appear just like the women in the pics cuz of the way I tuck down there. I don't only tuck but I tuck and glue. This spring when our friends get moved in behind us in our square, we are going to have a community pool right in the middle of where our 4 backyards meet. Husband and I took down our above ground pool which is 16 ft diameter and the 4 couples will all go in for a bigger pool that is 24 ft across.

Us wives will be hanging out around the pool quite often in our swimsuits (women's of course). The new 4 1/2 ft deep above ground pool will have a redwood deck all the way around it and there will be tables with benches and chairs and lounge chairs to sit at.

Below are pics of the new swimsuits that I bought.





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