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Jul 1, 2008 6:05 pm
134 Views |  | it is july 1st already. fuck. where did the year go? it is already more then halfway over. am i the only one bothered by this? you know the faster time goes, the faster we get old. i mean i will be 24 this year, and the idea boggles my mind. i remember turning 21 like it was yesterday, and 18 was just last week. i am not afraid of getting old. it is a part of life. i am, however, afraid of wasting time, and the fact that the year is speeding by so quickly is evident that that is what i am doing. fuck. i think this means i need to get up and do something productive. fuckin' a. |
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| Here's A Weird One |
Jun 29, 2008 11:39 pm
113 Views | I don't read much. Well let me rephrase that, I don't really ever read. EVER. But I have picked up a book, and yes I know how they work too, lol. I just finished reading a pretty good one today, and I figure since I never talk about books I might as well as do so now.
Yesterday night I picked up a book which one of my favorite horror movies, Hellraiser, was based on. Clive Barker's "Hellbound Heart" is 168 pages of some great writing. He is descriptive, and really makes his characters and his story come to life, ensaring you into it.
For those of you who have not seen "Hellraiser" or read this book, which was written before the movie, which Clive Barker also did, it is a story about pleasure, and of course pain, and the forbiden desires we all have. It is about the forbiden fruit, and the limits we would, could, go to obtain that forbiden knowledge.
But in this book the knowledge is not without consequence, fucked up consequence. The main characters, Frank and Julia, in this story both have desires they need fulfilled. Frank, wants Julia, and Julia wants Frank. But Julia is married to Frank's brother Rory, and she was only with Frank once right before the wedding, and Frank is dead, well sorta, and all he wants to do is get out. Both of them lost the lust, the appetite for what the real world has to offer. The two end up conspiring together to save Frank from Hell, and to save Julia from a loveless marrage. I don't want to say too much without ruining it, but it is a good read.
I think I am going to go back to the store and get some more of Barker's shit, because he is an excellent writer. I mean he got my lazy ass to read, and my vision sucks ass. Maybe I will pick up "RAwhead Rex" that one looked good... | |
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| blah blah blah part 6 |
May 26, 2008 8:37 pm
292 Views |  | You ever have one of those days where you just want to take a shovel and start hitting yourself in the face with it?
I am.
Fortunately there are no shovels nearby.
On a more serious note, I am sick and tired of bullshit. My bullshit, your bullshit, their bullshit, everyone's bullshit.
I am tired of being lied too, and more importantly I am tired of lying to others.
Half of my stress could be avoided if I would say what I fucking meant, and most of the world's troubles could also be prevented if people would stop fibbing so much.
Whatever happened to brutal, blunt, honesty?
Yeah the truth hurts, but lies maim. You lose a part of yourself every time you do it, and you lose a part of that person too.
This isn't one of those things where something in my life is wrong, I am just merely expressing the fact that I am so tired to life in general. I mean really tired.
All I want to do is sleep.
Then maybe eat something.
Then beat off.
Then curl up into a ball and sleep.
Where did I leave that damned shovel? |
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| babble |
May 23, 2008 8:02 pm
359 Views |  | The nineteenth was my sister's 21st birthday. We, meaning myself, my sister, my mom, my older sister, and my buddy, all went to Friday's and ate outside on the patio. We dined on appetizers and fish and all kinds of food, and drank margarita after margarita. The ditsy waitress accidentally spilled two glasses of water onto my sister and buddy's laps, so we got all of the appetizers for free. The drinks and dinners on the other hand, well maybe if they spilled scalding hot grease all over one of us we would have gotten the meals for free too. All in all it was a good night.
On a sadder note, a good friend of mine, Kieth, a.k.a. Boogie, was murdered the other night on May 17th. He was apparently beaten to death by some guy, who later got arrested by the cops. Lucky for him he got arrested. The other day a bunch of us, friends, family, etc., all met up at some skate park and took a bunch of group photos. The cops were on every corner for both our protection and scrutiny.
I have a phone message left from him still on my voice mail. My buddy and I, the one from Friday's, are in a band/music project thing and we are currently working on a song about him, featuring that phone message. The two of us were hella high and recorded it off of my phone on loud speaker, into a small microphone. It is perfect quality though.
Other then that I made over a grand in the last week in the half working this new job I have out in the bay. I only work a day or two a week, and each job pays quite well. I only worked two tines and raked in over a thousand dollars. That is the good news. The bad news is, that with my dog needing his vet bills paid, mother's day, my sister's birthday, commuting back and fourth to the bay, and my own few expenses, that grand is now dwindled into a small sum. So when I get back to work this week it will be save save save, because no one is sick and there are no birthdays coming up and nothing. Hopefully I can finally get the ball rolling on saving up for a car. |
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| sum more psycho babble |
May 14, 2008 3:09 am
449 Views | | there's nowhere to take shelter from your helter skelter and the wings of the gifted are suddenly lifted the third optic nerve will open the gates the dirt and the earth counteract man's fate the man is the beast and the beast is the man the clothes don't make the man the monkey makes the man you don't you won't understand or see passed the the tv screen or the mainstream oh go I think I'll scream what does it all mean follow follow follow trust lust and believe open up and swallow a million of American seeds hey mister zombie are you gonna eat my brain yo mr festering corpse are you insane you monkey in a suit yeah I'm talking to you your world is ending what the fuck you gonna do you'll get your ass in line cuz you can't think for yourself you'll cast your vote online buy a gas mask and hope that all ends up well yeah | |
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| fuck your face 2 |
May 13, 2008 1:16 am
511 Views |  | Since being single I have had a lot of sex. I know when I got dumped I said I was going to go out and have fun, but damn I must've meant it, because I have been getting lucky like a mother fucker. I went to the coffee shop with my homie, and I saw a hot ass guy just sitting there. My usual response is to not even try, because usually my luck is one of two things, a.) the guy is straight and will kick the shit outta me, or b.) he is gay, and will probably fall for my hotter friend then me. But no, he was gay, and low and behold I talked to him and poff, got a number, and "friend". I am on another site, a dating one, and I meet this hot barely eighteen year old, who lives right around the corner from me. He has been lots of fun. To top it off there is a "Bi" boy who I met online, and he is totally hot, loves to make out, has a hot chest and pretty big arms for such a youngin' (19). But yeah sex is coming so much lately I fear that I am turning into a real fucking whore, but whatever I might as well as have fun while I am young.
P.S. I am not in San Diego, sadly. I am still in the smog pit known as the valley. Oh yeah and no one still has guessed it. Just remember that it is better to be defiant, then to be compliant... |
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| stupid hyphy idiot |
May 12, 2008 3:04 pm
512 Views | | I have been all over the place the last couple of weeks. Not just literally, but figuritively too. I am definitely undergoing some sort of a psychological transformation, but this doesn't scare me. I am only adapting along with my surroundings, these changes are pretty seasonal. | |
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| yup |
May 10, 2008 3:04 pm
525 Views |  | I did it again...
you know?
that bad thing...
and it does not have to do with OP in anyway
But yeah I did it and I still don't feel guilty
maybe tomorrow?
But I doubt it |
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| yesterday |
May 8, 2008 2:05 am
563 Views |  | i did somethind BAD...
i mean fucking BAD
and i know i am gonna get caught
but i don't care
because i have the proper arguments in my defense
i am not going to say what i did
but you all will find out
and when i get exposed for it
i will tell those that don't catch on
but point is i did something BAD
and i am gonna do it again
and again
amd again
and again
you think i am lying
but i am not
1,000 points goes to anyone who guesses it |
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