i shoot with my mind  

angrypsycho77 2/17/2007 5:06 am Last Read: 3/3/2007 3:37 am	in 1943, eddie slovik decided that the war flat out scared him, and that if he was ordered to go on the front lines he would rather run away than die a certain death as cannon fodder. he expressed this to his commanding officer, and when denied did so to the officer above that, and so on from what we know. ordered to be a part of the front lines in a surely losing battle, eddie ran. in 1944 eddie was discovered in the french woods, rather shell shocked and frightened for his life. "All the men I knew and trained with have been killed." These were his words to the loyalist that found him. "I'm lonely.... The shells seem to come closer all the time and I can't stand them." The soldier that discovered him convinced him that if he turned himself in that the U.S. Army (hallowed be thy name) would forgive his trespasses and after a court marshall send him, albeit dishonorably, home. Soon after slovik was granted the dubious distinction as being the last person in our nation's history to be convicted and executed of desertion. i empathize with eddie, not as he was but as he is now, as he sits with the dark specters of herod, nero, hirohito, or winston churchill in the shadows of darkened greatness. dissent with a higher purpose, darkness in pursuit of a somewhat loftier strain either through madness, conformity, or dictation summed up in an act of bold cowardice in the midst of worldwide conflict. in the stories of the serialized graphic novel the sandman the moral that is prevalent is that each person, each intellectual entity, has the freedom to say no, and inevitably the freedom to give in, to give it all away. nero, through the insanities of the roman state and the incestuous royals he was inoculated with, publicized his scandals as much for the education of the public as for his own self immolation. hirohito admitted the weakness of his society in the face of a western tsunami of alien cultural norms that ultimately would overpower him unless he joined with them to slow them to a gentle ebb and flow. herod protected his sovereignty, and thereby his kingdom, by suppressing a bloodthirsty blessed heritage that had once decimated the populace of his kingdom and was prophesied to do so once again, to no avail. churchill made deals with devils and false prophets to secure a way of life for future generations at the cost of a near genocide and a slaughter of innocents. eddie spoke up so we can now. his supposed cowardice has become our strength, his treachery our dogma. his name doesn't echo as those others, and some may even label those as evil. but he did a similar service. he provided us with direction on how, or how not to, use our voices to fight back. eddie has been lost to history, although his name will be remembered by those of us that know the truth, those of us that have sacrificed the status quo to make a point, to be an example. mind you all, this is the same backwards thinking that got me almost kicked out of college. in summation, my heroes are those that have broken the mold, for better or worse, whose actions have actually made it possible for me to write these words. i don't want to descend into madness like nero or herod, or wallow in egomania like churchill or hirohito, i want to learn from their darkness and strive to live in twilight. (note: this was written all in one sitting, and i'm sure that once i come back a 20 page treatise entitled 'why barbie is bad' is forthcoming, followed by 'ken's plastic adventure')
ayi2005 3936 posts  2/17/2007 1:58 pm	People are beginning to speak out more these days and recognise the dangers of false nationalism/patriotism, the "Your either with us or against us" syndrome. But there are still too many who are only too willing to keep following false leaders chanting mindless jingoistic slogans as they go.
rideman 1695 posts  2/24/2007 4:38 pm	"in summation, my heroes are those that have broken the mold, for better or worse, whose actions have actually made it possible for me to write these words. " I agree with you, that people that break the mold out of courage to stand by their beliefs are to be commended. They are our heres but so are the ones that fight and die in the trenches being true to their beliefs. After all if I break the mold and conform to what the "Gay elite tell me I should do" is that any different than conforming to what society expects of us. I believe we have to discover ourselves and be true to that even if some people think we are being brainwashed by either group of people. I believe that we are free to speak our mind because people challenge the mold and because people gave their lives to protect and build the society we live in. Imperfect as it is - it is worth protecting. Hugs, Ron Take care, hugs, Ron "remember life is not judged by the number of breaths you take , it is measured by the moments that take your breath away."