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Late Night Ramblings.... Everyone from the chat room had to crash.... so here I set... I decided to take my rings off so I took them in and put them on my nightstand beside the bed. Our bedroom is lit by an old lava lamp from the 60's. It gives the room a pinkish hue... Our old fat Labrador, Spade looked up from his position on the bed at JD's feet his eyes glowed that golden green in the dim light. A couple days ago I'd picked a rosebud and stuck it in a vase on JD's side of the bed... it's now fully open JD's sleeping away, his back towards my side of the bed. He hasn't shaved since Friday or Saturday the fuzzy shadow will soon come off but his long hair falling across the white pillowcase looks like an image from one of those paperback romance novels you see in the drugs stores. I stood there weighing up so many of the little facets of the total image, thinking where would he be and where would I be had we not met up. I came back in and chatted a bit with some friends. Debated whether to post this or just delete it.... a piece of how my late night mind wanders off on a tangent, maybe a shrink is in here and will analyze my psychosis and prescribe the proper meds.... Nighty Nite from Iowa |
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10/6/2015 1:54 pm |
The dogs woke me up wanting to go outside and so I popped in. Kinda sad he can't find the right guy to be satisfied with.
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bretty has bedded 300 guys in a week and that was a slow week for bretty 
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Well I don't have any idea myself where I woulda ended up with without mine long term ex-bf roommate. Most probably I think the odds would be much worse than where I am now.I guess its only a guess at the casino of life ,no idea really but when you smash your mind in to it like a brick wall it seems like I always catastrophise worst possible dreadful scenarios, never anything positive just doom n gloom worry,terrible anxiety and almost all the time it never happened to get as bad as I imagined it to be.And all the many different kinds of shrink drugs( mayby x20 kinds) on the market ive taken for that didnt do anything positive for me at all.
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10/7/2015 8:42 pm |
bretty has bedded 300 guys in a week and that was a slow week for bretty
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10/7/2015 8:43 pm |
Well I don't have any idea myself where I woulda ended up with without mine long term ex-bf roommate. Most probably I think the odds would be much worse than where I am now.I guess its only a guess at the casino of life ,no idea really but when you smash your mind in to it like a brick wall it seems like I always catastrophise worst possible dreadful scenarios, never anything positive just doom n gloom worry,terrible anxiety and almost all the time it never happened to get as bad as I imagined it to be.And all the many different kinds of shrink drugs( mayby x20 kinds) on the market ive taken for that didnt do anything positive for me at all.
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10/8/2015 7:08 pm |
I hope you managed to get a good night sleep I missed you guys
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